december 17th 2024, tuesday, at 11:46 am
i'm so lonely and tired of my job. I have a week left until i can leave since i put in the two weeks notice. this fucking cheese factory is killing me. their cheese isn't even that good. their pepper jack flavor makes me want to throw up. i went on reddit earlier and looked at the starterpack subreddit and saw this one french house starterpack and clicked off because honestly it sucked really bad. it's fucking reddit. i have to go to work today in like 2 hours. one more week left, then i can look for something else.. one more week left. then i never have to look at pepper jack flavor cheese again labeled on the spicy meter by the company as "middle spicy" when its not spicy at fucking all. it has no spice. the helluva good brand has better pepper jack cheese than this shit. i don't fucking care anymore. i wanna be a web coder. i want to get paid to do raw html and css. I haven't drawn in peace this whole year. I miss drawing. It's all I want to do sometimes, otherwise i just want to lie in bed.. and nap..or eat.. or watch anime.. i don't want to get high all the time and kill deer in a car on the way home because i can't take my job anymore. i don't want to get addicted to vaping. i want to draw. i don't want to have children. i want to draw. i dont wanna talk to the women at my job. i dont want to make friends with them. i don't like them. they are toxic individuals. i want to draw. thats all. i want to draw and be happy. i want to draw and be happy, and play with html and css, and make a living out of it, and be able to not be homeless. 